Hi there everyone! Another day is here and wishing it was over. I totally want to vent about a few things. I've been kinda blah the last few weeks and it all boils down to a short temper and naughty kids. My short temper is about more hormones with the additional birth control that I'm on in an attempt to shrink the ovarian cysts that are giving me fits. The first month of the pill caused the opposite effect by making them grow instead of making them smaller. I go back into the doctor on the 29th to possibly schedule surgery to remove the buggers.
I'm almost thinking that the combination of my anti depressants, my IUD, and extra birth control are making me extra irritable. It doesn't help that the kids are being extra defiant and don't want to listen to anything I say. My husband has been a sweetheart, but it doesn't fix that I'm simply irritable. My job doesn't make things easier. Being on the phones for over 7 hours a day is simply insane!
I wish things were a bit simpler, but they just aren't. I'm struggling with the decision of whether or not to have another child.
When did I lose myself? I've been thinking a lot about what I used to want, used to be like and what I wanted to accomplish in life. There is something I've lost. I don't know how to explain it, nor do I know to regain it. I don't feel like myself.
How can i get myself back?
